Fuck Logic

I feel a little dirty, like no matter how much I scrub myself with a wire brush this feeling wont go away.

These are the facts -

I got drunk,

I hooked up with my ex

end of.

This is so weird, a lapse in control, I was doing so well not going back to him, not texting, facebooking any ridiculous messages on how I felt deep inside ( I didn’t feel anything because I wouldn’t let the stronger, rasher feelings surface)

Not making sense? I know, ugh, I don’t actually know what I’m trying to say, but I guess its that - Its not that bigger deal hooking up with him, it just brought foward all sorts of feelings I didn’t want to feel, and now here they are.. making me fall into a slump. 

I’ll stop talking now. It could be a good thing that I feel this way, it might just make things better.